This is a very personal and painful post for me to share with the world. I put my heart completely in your hands today as I share with you pictures of our son William in a way I have never shared before. I have prayed over the decision to share this and I hope that he will help bring light and understanding to those who read here.
My heart is heavy. As my newsfeed on Facebook fills up with righteous indignation over the death of Cecil, an African Lion, I can’t help but wonder where the outrage is over the videos being released by the Center for Medical Progress showing Planned Parenthood employees discussing the calculated killing and sale of human body parts. I have some friends talking about the videos, but where is everyone else? Where is the media coverage? Those who normally support Planned Parenthood are silent.
Why is that?
Do they fear admitting that Planned Parenthood has done something so vile and unconscionable or are they simply in shock that the company they trusted and who claimed to be working for women’s health “rights” is engaged in such abominable practices. Do they support Planned Parenthood’s heinous acts and are afraid of being labeled monsters as well? I don’t know why so many are silent, but it makes me sad to know that our society is so upset over the hunting and death of a lion when our own babies are being hunted down and killed for profit on a daily basis.
Maybe you are one of the few who has not seen the videos yet. Maybe you really don’t know that Planned Parenthood is profiting from the sale of the body parts they are harvesting from aborted babies. Maybe you don’t want to believe that Planned Parenthood is not all they claim to be. Maybe you hope if you close your eyes and don’t read the stories or watch the videos that the allegations against the abortion giant will all go away and that they can get back to providing women with “quality health care”. I beg you, please, open your eyes and see the truth.
Planned Parenthood is killing babies, often in ways against the law, and they are profiting from selling their body parts. BODY PARTS. They are selling body parts. How can this be ok?
When our society values the life of a lion over the life of a child, you know there is something gravely wrong within our society. While a lion is a beautiful and majestic creature created by God for man, its life is not equal to that of a human being. While outrage over his death is justifiable as we are called to protect all of God’s creatures, it should never take precedence over the outrage of humans being slaughtered each and every day.
Ricky Gervais said he struggled to imagine anything more beautiful than Cecil the lion. How can he and others be so blind? How can they look at a tiny infant, born or unborn, and not see God’s goodness, love, and beauty? How can a lion be more beautiful than the perfect image of God created in a tiny human being?
I have held the most beautiful thing in my hands- something far greater than a lion ever could be. Before I held him, I felt him kick within my womb, I saw his heart beating on ultrasound, and I loved him with all my being. He was perfect in every way… but he was not made for this life.
I share our son William with you in a way that I never have before. I want you to see that an unborn baby is truly a baby. He was not a clump of cells that didn’t feel pain. He was not something “like a human”. He was human- fully, completely, and beautifully.
I wonder if looking at William is as difficult for you as it is for me. Maybe it is hard for each of us for different reasons.
When I look at William I see my son, loved beyond all measure, taken from me too soon. I see hopes and dreams that will never be fulfilled. I see a sibling who won’t run and play with his brothers and sisters and a son who will never wrap his arms around me and tell me he loves me. I see fingers that will never make smudges on my windows and lips that will never kiss mine. I see eyes that will never gaze in awe at a birthday cake with candles ablaze just for him. I see a teeny nose that I will never get to pretend to steal. I see a little boy who looks so much like his siblings that there is no way they could ever deny he is “one of us”. I see love and hope and beauty when I look at my son. It’s difficult to look at my son and be reminded of how much we have lost.
Maybe looking at him is hard for you because you’ve never seen a child so tiny, so perfect. Perhaps you’ve been misled to believe that babies in the womb are not truly babies, that they can’t feel pain, or that they are just parasites living off of their host. Maybe you’ve never seen hands quite so little ready to hold on to his mother’s hands. Maybe it is difficult to look at him because by doing so you encounter his humanity and in a way, your own humanity as well. By recognizing that a baby in the womb is fully human with God given rights (as all humans have) it means that killing him may not be as ok as you once believed. Maybe, just maybe, it is difficult to admit that there are people out there who are killing babies for profit- not providing health care- but providing a way to murder human beings and harvest their organs.
For some people, looking at William will be a reminder of a choice they once made. It will break their hearts to know that they chose to take a life. I know that there are many women out there who are conned into believing that these tiniest humans don’t matter- that only they, the mom and dad, matter; and my heart breaks for those who have been in this position. I know there are many women who, if given the chance to make a different choice after they were given truthful information about the little baby growing inside of them, would choose to give their child life instead. If they could see inside of their wombs at the little person growing there, their hearts would know that life was the only choice.
We are given the great honor and responsibility to protect life. It is ok to be outraged over the slaughter or mistreatment of an animal. It is very admirable to protect the animals of the world. We must protect and preserve them- it is our God given duty. But we can’t forget that there are human beings who need protecting too. We should be even more outraged that our own children are being slaughtered every single day; over a million human beings each year. If it is our God given duty to protect life, including the animals, how much more should we be doing for innocent human beings who reside beneath our own hearts?
It is up to us to end this culture of death. William, even though he was completely wanted and loved by us, was disregarded by the nurses and doctors at the hospital. His life meant nothing to those who were sworn to “do no harm”. I have prayed since we lost him that God would show me the purpose of his life. I know today that William has the ability to change hearts and minds simply by my being open to sharing him with you in this intimate manner.
I pray you will look at him and see him for what he truly is- wonderfully and perfectly made in the image and likeness of God; fully human and loved beyond all measure. Count his fingers; memorize his face; image his hand wrapped around yours. Know that every child in the womb is the same- a human being worthy of love and a chance at life.
Watch the Planned Parenthood videos if you are able and see them for what they truly are. Search your heart and be open to the truth.
Every life matters, even the tiniest ones of all.
If you are in need of post-abortive counseling, whether from a past or recent abortion, Rachel’s Vineyard is a wonderful place to visit.
If you would like to read William’s entire story, please visit here.